Let me just start off by saying life is hard!
I LOVE my life and wouldn’t change it for the world. I also love a good challenge but sometimes my go get it done personality burns itself out.
It becomes increasingly tougher with an almost 13-year-old girl with type 1 and an 11-year-old boy with ADHD. Oh, and don’t forget to include the four-year-old, two large dogs, and 5 1/2 acres. Now you’ve got yourself pure chaos.
In the past few weeks, we have had yard work and cleared land. There were dental appointments and everyday life to handle. We went through soccer season and make-up games. We built a burn pit and met with school counselors. We also cleaned out rooms and had Halloween celebrations. We’ve been getting ready for William’s birthday, I finished Christmas shopping, and wrapped Christmas gifts! We always make time for Church and family time… but that’s just a few of the many things we’ve been doing and I’m exhausted… And my body hurts!
For some people burning the candle at both ends works out really well for them… Unfortunately, I get overstimulated easily. I’m making a lot of progress in the areas I wanted to. However, the little things that are usually easy to keep up with start to paralyze me.
Some of my biggest anxiety triggers are clutter and a lot of loud noises at one time.
If you’re a mom you know loud noises are inevitable. So, I try not to have the TV on if the kids are in the room talking. If I’m in the kitchen cooking or doing the dishes, I ask them to wait until I’m done. I can’t hear them, and it makes me feel anxious because too many things are going on. I’ve learned that they are more understanding if I just tell them I’m over stimulated. It’s better than waiting until I freak out because I can’t handle it anymore.
If our morning starts off on the wrong foot it’s really hard to recover from it. None of us do well with running late or being rushed. If you take all of that and add a sink full of dishes, well it’s just a recipe for disaster.
I absolutely LOVE my husband. He works two jobs and still comes home and helps around the house. He still keeps up with the yard and humors me when I want to start a big project. Over the past two weeks, I’ve convinced him to help me clear a bunch of overgrowth. We also removed dead trees to make our house visible from the street. With Christmas coming up, I really wanted to make the yard nice. I want to decorate and not feel like it will be a waste of my time. So he helped me get it done! Now it’s only about 90% done but we will get back to it in a few days. We took a small break to build a fire pit in the back yard. We didn’t have to do this right now. However, he knew how much I loved doing s’mores for Williams birthday every year. Last year was the first year we couldn’t do it. We had just moved in so the outside of the house wasn’t a top priority yet.
Listen, Our life is far from perfect. We take everything day to day and we try to communicate as much as possible. If you aren’t talking to each other and LISTENING to each other then what is the point? Your marriage should be a give and expect nothing in return relationship. I know what you’re thinking… they will walk all over me! But when you communicate with your spouse, they will understand you. They will understand what makes you tick. They will understand what motivates you. They will understand how to help you. They will want to make your life better because they will see all the ways you make them better. If your spouse is putting you down and treating you with anything less than mutual respect and love. Then you’re likely married to a narcissist. A devoted and loving wife should NEVER feel alone and unloved in a marriage.
Sorry for that random relationship seminar!
Payton and her type 1 diabetes lately… She is doing good. We have been slacking with our weekly videos because we have been so busy. But please make sure you like, share, and subscribe to our YouTube channel!
She is almost 13 so coupled with the diabetes she is extra moody. She has chosen to take the easy way out and will not be embracing change. She has chosen to quit soccer altogether. She also bombed her tryouts at school on purpose because she claimed I was “making her do it”. She thinks I’m trying to live through her. Honestly, that couldn’t be farther from the truth. However, she’s a “teen”. One day she will understand that I love her and definitely didn’t have a passion to be her chauffeur. I know she’s scared of change. I just wanted to help her push through it. In the end, she chose to do nothing because it was easier at that moment. I just hope she doesn’t regret it. Her diabetes has been a little wacky. She had a few days where she was just staying high. She was clearly getting some insulin because her levels would come down a little. So we assumed it was probably the insulin going bad. She changed her POD and went back to normal so there was clearly something up with the pod. We have been waiting for her Omni Pod boxes to say G6 and G7 on them. This will allow us to change her over to the new Dexcom. So far, we have only gotten two boxes out of six. Though we are closer, we still aren’t there yet. So we have been holding off on ordering her Dexcom transmitter. The pharmacy keeps trying to fill it. I keep canceling it because she isn’t due to change it until next month. They are $120 with insurance so if we won’t need it next month that’s a total waist of money. Cole did not know about the pharmacy battle and he picked her sensors up the other day. To his surprise, they gave him the transmitter as well! So now we have another 3 months before we can move her over to the smaller and more convenient CGM. Pharmacy’s upset me so much. They will treat you like a drug addict if you try to fill a narcotic type of medication. But then they try to push expensive devices down your throat as soon as insurance clears the prescription. Yeah, I’m a little moody about it too!
William and His ADHD
So William is William. He is a sweet heart. He loves like no body else. He experiences a lot of feelings. He makes a lot of bad choices because he has no frontal lobe. His common sense is seriously lacking, but he’s highly intelligent. We spoke with the school guidance counselor and got some pretty good news. He might be a lot, he might be immature and annoying sometimes. If she’s not worried about him, I can sleep knowing that I don’t have to be worried about him either. He is who he is and who God made him to be. One day, it will all click. Until then, we have a pure/unfiltered William with all of his feels and emotions.
Sophia is full of life!
This kid has been working out in the yard with us everyday and LOVING it. She absolutely thrives doing stuff with us outside. She actually sang to us so much that she lost her voice. She’s been filthy. Had to toe every day but living her best life. She also can’t wait for school won’t start until next fall.
Well there’s not much left to say other than, I’m exhausted. I need a nap and I think I’ll go lie down lol.
Thanks for come! See you next time!
Brittany @Lifewiththehortons
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