Following God’s Voice
You’re Probably Wondering What This Has to Do With Type 1 or Celiac…
There is a simple answer to that!
Music is a huge part of who I am. It really allowed me to have a healthy outlet when Payton was first diagnosed.
I wrote a song I titled Faith about a month before Payton’s diagnosis. At this time in my life, I still wasn’t sharing my music with people at all. I didn’t know why I wrote it or who it could be for. All I really knew was that it was on my heart and I needed to write it down. So I sat down at my piano and just started playing and the song basically wrote itself. Little did I know that this song would have a major impact on me in just a few months time.
After Payton’s diagnosis I was consumed with research. I had to learn everything from counting carbs to cooking gluten free. I had very little time for anything else. It was very easy to get overwhelmed and angry about the life and situation we were now living in. I had many moments and thoughts I’m not proud of. There was no one to blame, but when we are vulnerable the devil loves to sneak in and plant doubt. My 5 year old baby girl would ask me why God hadn’t healed her yet. She would ask why she had to have diabetes. She would cry and tell me how much she hated it. I tried to stay strong for her, I didn’t want her faith to break. I could feel my own faith shattering like glass. I had all of the same questions she did. How do you tell your child to keep believing when you are hanging on by a thread. Well you pull your big girl pants up and you tell her that we don’t know God’s timing. You tell her that God loves her. You tell her that He doesn’t want this for her. You tell her that our bodies are born into a world of sin. You also tell her that this is just a temporary place we live. One day we will be made whole and united with God in heaven.
Once things started to calm down for me, I started to play music again. This was different from my prep work for Sunday services. This was just for me. I started looking through old songs and came across Faith. I was in shock at how special and specific to my situation it was.
It impacted me so much, that I actually ended up getting a tattoo on my wrist that says faith.
I wanted a constant reminder to have faith no matter what life threw at me.
When I was playing and singing this song I could feel God again. I was no longer stressing about the life Payton wasn’t going to have anymore. I was thanking God for the life she still has to live. So, we offer Him our worship and we praise Him for protected and love Payton that Sunday morning. She is stronger than ever and living a full life.
So in conclusion to the main question, what does this have to do with Type1 or Celiac… for me, it’s everything! I keep my faith. I stay faithful to God’s promises. I choose to worship when the storms of life try to engulf me. I hold my head up high because I believe that this is just a temporary place. Eternity with God is so much sweeter than anything this world could ever offer. So I will let my worship pour out of me. I will not be ashamed, because I know that it touches the Father’s heart. It brings me closer to an eternity with Him.
I hope you’ll want to follow along. Maybe just pop in from time to time. Please fell free to come check out the music I’ve been working on.
Thank you for coming and showing an interest in my life and all of my passions. Until next time, be blessed!
Brittany Horton
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